From ever since I was a child I was bullied, from day to day I had none to one friend, everyone would run away and hide from me or just tell me they don't want to hang out with me. From prep to the end of year three I was at James Cook then from year three to six I went to school at Doveton North. I had one friend, her name was Honey. When she didn't come to school, I'd be so lonely and sit there and be by myself for the whole of lunch and recess break. When year five started Honey had made friends with another girl her name was Makara. They ended up becoming best friend's so from then on for the next two years I was by mself... When I started high school I thought everything would change and be completly different, I thought I'd make friends and people would like me...... I was wrong! I had one for the first two years, but she'd always talk behind my back and she'd always be calling me a bitch or annoying... It really got to me, so I started playing up in class and I'd get detentions and suspentions so I wouldn't have to hang out with her. Halfway through year eight my parents finally realized and pulled me out of that high school, they enrolled me into another school. At the start everyone wanted to be my friend, but slowly as time passed it was history replaying itself I had lost nearly everyone so I stopped going to school everyday. In October I started played up really bad, I started getting in trouble with the law, I even got arrested at one stage! It got harder to make new friends, everyone would ignore me and would not want to get to know me for who I was so I made do with the very few I had... Around this time, I first self harmed myself by cutting my wrists. The following day my mum saw she wasn't happy about it. She treated me as if I was some kind of mentally ill suicidal freak! She took me to the doctors so I could get help and to find out what was wrong with me. The doctor told me I had depression and anexity... My mum couldn't believe it, we became so distant... And for my dad? Well he's an alcoholic and never really was a father to me. He was and still is very abusive. He sits there talking me down, saying I'm going to be pregnant before I turn 16.. He'd also always say I was a dumb bitch for not going to school... In the end I'd lost hope in school and suceeding in anything! No one ever gave me help, around the time I started cutting I met someone from school.. His name was Hayden, as the more I got to know him we got closer and closer, we ended up dating it wasn't until a few months into the relationship we actually opened up about our personal problems. We both noticed we both cut, as time passed we made each other happy. We stopped each other cutting, about 4 months later we ended up breaking up it was hard but we still remained best riends.. While we dated we hung around the same people, so when we broke up we kept hanging around together slowly I noticed we were all similiar, we all had relating problems. I'd never felt so wanted and I actually fitted in! From then to the end of year nine we were a group of bestfriends. By the end of year nine we had all split up, most of us moved schools got jobs or moved houses. It was extremely hard on everyone including me. It was around that time I found out about Tiny Chat. I ended up finding a room with some really nice people, it was called Just4Laughs. I'd come in everyday, everyone would be so happy to see me. They'd sit there and welcome me into the room, it made me unbelievably happy. It's been eight months now since I've found Just4Laughs and now we've all become a big big family, they've helped me out so much with my life and they've changed me. If I ever needed anyone to talk to, they'd be there! They're my long distance family from all around the world. I've made so many new friends, they've made my life so much brighter. If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't be who I am today!
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Amanda
5/19/2012 04:43:10 am
I'm glad and proud that you were able to over come this! Not many people in the same position as you know where to turn. Most need guidance.
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D'artagnan
5/19/2012 11:17:33 am
This girl here can over come anything she puts her mind to and when she asks for help that make her even stronger.
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